Hey everyone! This blog will live on don't worry, but there will be huge changes to my website and myself on the World Wide Web.

If you got a 88x31 button of me on your website. First of thank you! and second please change the link from my all encompassing website to this blog! Thx. Okay lets get on with the blog post of why this is all happening.

When I started to post stuff 2012ish I just used my very short name for everything, maybe with some initials or the start of my family name. As my name is only three letters in length, there were was no need for any username, even in arcade games ;) . And this is something I kept on for my "entire" life, because

  1. I like my name
  2. my name is short
  3. there was only one other (queer) human using it online
  4. I always had names for projects but I define myself with the name I got in a strong way
  5. A lot of other people I like/admire use their legal names online
  6. ~~ I had nothing to hide ~~
  7. I only live once and all the stuff I do / make contribute to my self
  8. I found it boring when you say SuperDuperArtist aka LegalName all the time
  9. Mostly people in my real life didnt care what I did online or would ask what the fuck I was posting to twitter

ähm yeah, mostly it was continent and I felt mostly safe with expressing online. But over the last couple of years I knew that this was also limiting for me. I did not want to have a brand or a persona that was a specific thing. I want to be fluid in expressing what I am enyoing about making art without any regard of what I did before. To be bland I felt stuck and I wanted to blame the 0€ making personal brand of my legal name online for it. I was and still am a human that wants to create but I became more and more a human that should/must do specific things to be worth of my past.

This post is as all my post mostly me rambling on and on about me and my problems for everyone to read. And I do enjoy posting them and therefore curating them. The only real problem is I dont want my people in real life to have that deep of an insight into my life. I want to create context for everyone I am talking to you internet mutal, you internet stranger, you dear friend and you dear foe. I want to tell you all different stories of my life. But the more I connect all of them to a single persona, especially one I carry on in the meat space the more I get the feeling of judgement or what person X would think when I read it. I am hundred percent fine with having all my digital art tied toghter, but having to answer questions here at my place about what this all is is kinda scary.

So where does this leave me? I made a lot of art and I tied it to my legal name. This is not the end of the world and I could argue that nobody cares. So I will just cut a few links. My main website (for now) is not having a "thats Kai and she is making videogames" section anymore. Also the website has almost no link to my blog anymore. I am planning a more handcoded website with a house like approach where there is more context and anonymity for me to hide behind. I want to make art and dont want to worry who reads these posts.

If you got any comments please send them my way with werk@werder.fyi

Best regards:

PS: the problem really is just that my first name and my last name make it hard to hide haha.

Thanks for reading my little self obsessed post.